Can We Keep It Real?

We currently live in a very power hungry, ego-driven, illusion-based and overindulgent in consumerism world. Sadly, this only seems to be getting worse. I have been watching several psychology studies over the last few years that confirm a rise in sociopathy in America  – with a vast increase in anti-social behavior in our children. I believe that this is a natural survival extension of our world’s twisted paradigm, as well as in part to how we now tend to communicate with each other (via text, email, social media, etc.). We no longer have to be as responsible for our feelings and actions, or care about how someone else feels.

 I was really devastated with the passing of Robin Williams, like most of you, and at how he took his own life. It hit me in a very profound way. Is our culture elbowing out those who care, who feel and who reach out their hand to help others? It is a rare event in itself that we were able to witness such a true, pure, (bleeding) heart as we saw in Robin Williams. He had so much love, and every action that he took was to make someone else feel better. How amazing is that?! Whether it was his past drug and alcohol abuse that expanded his awareness, or deeper childhood wounds driving him to understand the flaws of society, it is clear that he could see straight through the illusions of the world, especially the illusions of Hollywood that he refused to cloak himself with. Not many can understand such realities, let alone express them so hilariously as he did.

The increased violence in Syria, Iraq, Isreal, Africa and many other places throughout the world is alarming and discouraging. In my opinion, these jihads are not attracted to the religious aspect of being Muslim, they are angry individuals who are attracted to the misinterpreted violence. They are fueled, no doubt, by many things, with “Hollywoodism,” being one, so they say. I don’t think that they understand the incredible illusion of Hollywood, and they (believing the world of the “Rich and Famous”) feel deprived, left-out, “less-than.” It feels like an argument that spun from a non-verbal text misunderstanding – you know the kind, right? Where an argument arose out of misperception? Where both parties clung to their own assumptions and created a war from nothing? Except now these jihad’s misperceptions and subsequent feelings of alienation have a vengeance and a mission of their own. You and I know a little differently.

 Personally, from having met a few celebrities in my day, I know that they are no different than the rest of us – in fact, I tend to feel more sorry for them when almost inevitably they begin to believe their own illusions, because it is then that they risk losing a chance at true self-actualization. What I love about the surge in talent-search reality shows is that we see how much true talent there is in the world. And anyone can be a “celebrity,” for which talent is not required. Being based in Los Angeles, I teach many celebrities purely because that is where I live and work. Aside from a few that I have met and worked with, they tend to have deeper insecurities, fears and anxieties than most people I know (we all have them, but pretending that we don’t feeds the realm of illusion). I have also been able to witness first-hand their “team” – whose sole job is to assure that their moments in front of the camera tell a different story, one that can be marketed and profited from. They are made-up, styled, rehearsed, staged, pre-recorded, photo-shopped, audio-tuned, tweeked, nipped and tucked to present their illusion. Doesn’t that sound awful?

As many of you know, I studied child development in college, and I can’t help but wish that children all over the world had the opportunities to self-realization. My heart breaks seeing children lying murdered in the streets, and their potential stolen from them. We do not have a choice if we want to avoid more global suffering. Our planet cannot sustain so much greed and violence, and our societies will be negatively compromised. We have to return to what is real and natural.

In light of the increased violence in the world today, I felt it fitting to add a weekly Pray It Forward in all of our represented cities. The world needs peace, and we cannot sit back helplessly watching so much violence. We are part of the energetic fibers of this world and we can make a positive change.

AZIAM Yoga  has now added free Pray It Forward meditation classes with all of our current CLK Yoga – Pay It Forward  instructors. If you would like to be part of our movement, please email Some instructors teach once a month, others once a week. The yoga is free, our guests Pay It Forward with a sincere act of kindness.

I have added SUNDAY’s at 7pm – Palisades Park in Santa Monica for our (free) Pray It Forward Meditation for Peace offerings.



I AM More Than T & A

After years of watching my dog interact with other dogs, I have come to view the animalistic nature of sexual attraction to include a desire to dominate another being (although I also believe in more evolved and love-based relationships that many humans experience and seek). Who’s the bigger dog that is going to dominate, pro-create and therefore survive?

As the yoga culture continues to increase worldwide, I am seeing more examples of these primitive human characteristics and the objectification of a female yogi seeping into this pop-culture community that was once based on an eight-limbed path to enlightenment.

I have had this blog swirling in my mind, waiting to be written for many years now, but I did not want to express it from a judgmental or personal perspective. Last week, however, I had an experience that cracked the eggshell. I practiced yoga next to another yoga instructor. I couldn’t help but stare at her overly Botoxed, frozen face when she introduced herself, and I found my heart swelling with sadness for what seemed to be a woman projecting some illusion of beauty. Then she took off her top, revealing melon-shaped implants spilling over her sports top. I smiled more from compassion than approval, as having taught in Beverly Hills for 15 years, I understand the insecurity that lies beneath most fillers and implants.

It wasn’t until I saw her practice that I knew it was time to share this blog. She told me of her neck issues, joint pain and physical limitations. I wasn’t shocked at that, knowing the side effects of breast implants and toxic fillers – what did shock me is that a yoga instructor would consciously forego her health for a desire to be a commercialized form of “sexy.” I have learned to accept this choice with the actresses and models that I teach, but a yoga instructor? I am truly not judging her, because 1) maybe she hasn’t made the connection and 2) I understand both the temptation and the consequences, but I felt it was time to open the conversation.


Being Barbie

Anyone can buy a Barbie face and body. Have you ever been to a ladyboy or drag show where men transform into stunning glamour girls? This modern day recipe for “sexy” includes the following: breast implants, butt implants, nose job, Botox, lip and facial fillers, hair extensions and weaves, false eye lashes, fake nails and pounds of cover-up and make-up. Anyone, let me repeat, anyone, can be this – man, woman or Kardashian – and much like a Louis Vuitton bag, people carry their silicone baggies as if they are better people for having them.

My question is, why would anyone want to relish in something that is inauthentic, fake and that anyone can have? There is so much more beauty and character in loving and being who you truly are (pan to Meryl Streep) while also attracting someone who loves you for just that. I will share with you my opinion: because it sends an instantaneous, non-verbal message that one is looking to be desired. As in any business exchange, when you know that someone wants something, they are easier to be negotiated and bought. Therefore those looking to “win” will be attracted to those with obvious signs of trying to appear sexier – since that translates as a higher chance to succeed. Unfortunately, far too many people falsely perceive being desired with being loved.

When I see someone with obvious and excessive elective plastic surgery, I instantly equate it with someone who is not happy with who they are (not always, but most of the time – and my comments and opinions exclude breast cancer survivors who use medical breast implants how they were originally intended). I completely appreciate artful and subtle procedures to enhance one’s natural beauty and negate the effects of aging. For those looking to hide or run from who they are however, it is a dangerous tool to use. Any professional athlete, detective, shrewd business person, or war soldier will tell you that any sign of a person lacking self-confidence creates an opportunity to dominate, control and possibly acquire them. Most plastic surgery procedures require one to literally be cut open, have needles injected into them, and spend a lot of money gambling to achieve something “better”. Well, if you’re gambling, you probably don’t think that you have much to lose. In just a few seconds, this is translated as “easy.” And being easy is more of what is attractive than any extraordinary show of beauty. In my latest book, As I Am, I outline seven personality types based on common food choices and behavior characteristics. The Predator personality type loves to win and acquire, and they (consciously or not) seek those who they can easily objectify and dominate.

Let’s start with some basic facts about plastic surgery:

1) Breast and gluteal implants are literally silicone covered baggies stuffed into either a person’s chest cavity or under their gluteus maximus muscles. Yes, baggies – that’s what they are, and muscles and vital tissue are cut to get these baggies in place.

2) Scar tissue accumulates around all implants as a means for the body to protect itself from the foreign object and the microbes that grow on them.

3) Mold and bacteria collect around and inside both silicone and saline implants (not so sexy).

4) Botox is made from botulism, which is one of, if not the most toxic substance known on earth.

5) Did you know that stem cells live in fat? Healthy fat is an asset, not a nuisance to be vacuumed away and condemned. Also, there are increasing studies showing that bigger-hipped women have higher IQs, a longer life expectancy and smarter kids. So enjoy your natural, healthy curves – real ones have benefits that fake ones lack.

Ring of Power

Similar to Froto in The Lord of the Ringswomen hold the ultimate power and control over what is defined as a sexy woman. Sadly, the majority of women have been led to believe otherwise (that they are powerless) and therefore succumb to the ignorant trends in our societies today (sexual objectification and/or sexual submission). If women truly embraced their natural beauty and respected their value as powerful, feminine human beings, men would have no choice than to follow their example (as some do).

As I mentioned, I am certainly not denying the magnificence and artistry of beauty, or subtle plastic surgery (if one is willing to gamble all of the risks), because I also know that Gravity is not always our friend. I hope to see greater advances in this field of medicine with more natural results and materials, and doctors looking to enhance instead of transform. However, I do seek to incorporate the understanding of asteya (the aspect of non-stealing) as defined in Patanjali’s Yoga Sutras to illustrate that when one’s obsession with image overrides self-love, health, personal authenticity and purpose, it lacks integrity. How is it that we can appreciate Mona Lisa’s beautiful Roman nose, yet negate our own artistry? Would you appreciate a forged or photoshopped Picasso? A well-restored Picasso, sure, but a Picasso manufactured to look like a Matisse? Probably not.

Personally, I find natural women infinitely more attractive for a couple reasons: 1) because they are real, and there is no accomplishment associated with plastic surgery as there is with loving oneself, 2) natural women tend to be healthier, therefore radiating happiness, which is truly as beautiful and sexy as it gets. Scar tissue diminishes energy flow and we are live, energy beings. Living with toxic silicone baggies and scar tissue inside one’s body diminishes energy flow, as well as overall systemic functioning. It may suit some women to diminish their heart chakra – they may fair better in business and/or less love-based sex, but it may be a hearty price to pay to block the exquisite feeling of being loved for who you are.

99% of the characteristic Beverly Hills women that I have taught yoga to over the years (who choose multiple elective surgery procedures) suffer from some form of inflammatory illness; be that joint pain, arthritis, digestive imbalances, skin rashes, allergies, asthma, severe migraines, etc., and from my experiences, they are never as happy as they pretend to be. Ironically, I often find myself thinking, “She would be so pretty if she hadn’t put that stuff in her lips.”

Many people wonder about these health-related consequences. Why are some people more affected than others? Well, it is the same answer as to why some people become ill before others do when exposed to the same toxic elements. There is an accumulative effect of toxins vs. the immunity supporting forces that counteract them. Ironically, women often receive more attention and affection after a new procedure, which they equate as love. The endorphins that follow the feeling of love can support one’s immune system, even though the toxic source is still there. Eventually, however, the toxins tend to win. It is up to each person to decide if it is worth gambling with their health and committing to an illusion, all the while contributing to the global objectification of women and diminishing self-esteem in the young girls exposed to it.

I know that I am fortunate to be an attractive woman with a fit, flexible, and beautiful body. I say this not to brag,  only to illustrate that I am not whining from a position of lack or perceived inequality. I know that I can use this to my “advantage,” but here is the thing: I consciously choose not to. I honor and respect my path, other people’s path, and Nature too much to manipulate them. Similar to exercising the strength to focus my mind or defy gravity in my postures, I choose not to take actions that lack integrity. Yet, our world is set up to support those who do and I have been criticized for stepping away from the easy and seductive paradigms that we currently live with.

I believe one major reason that our natural resources are rapidly diminishing worldwide lies in that individual desires outweigh the needs of humanity as a whole. With that said, most people are looking to “win” or “score” in each moment of their lives. When do we stop to 1) give back unconditionally, and 2) be content with what we have, as it is? Hey, I live in LA, so I know that it is much worse here, but only because it is somewhat acceptable to be superficial and show one’s selfish motives here. Greed is everywhere, however, and it doesn’t take much to seduce someone to reveal how selfish they can become. It takes conscious effort to practice integrity, kindness and live with a unity consciousness mindset. This is what will create a greater humanity, and this I would truly love to see.

Personally, I would much rather be alone, loving myself authentically and truthfully than to be in anyone’s company that loves me for who I am not. The endless, seductive road trying to look like a photoshopped supermodel is truly a pathway that is not only very difficult to escape once you are on it, but begins to chip away at the essence of who you truly are. In my opinion, it is men who play with dolls much more than little girls do, in our society. Have you ever wondered about celebrity men who seem to serial date supermodels? Supermodels define sexual objectification, their choice of work often indicates that they desire to be wanted (easier to control) and their frail, boy-like bodies seem easier to dominate than a hearty, healthy woman would be. Poor Ken wouldn’t even have a chance.

What this all stems down to is integrity and self-realization. It is obvious when a car is stolen from its parking space, and we can use physical evidence to convict someone of the crime. Trademark attorneys, likewise, work to protect the intellectual properties of those who own them. Yet, the world-renowned “guru” that I worked for with a long list of sexual harassment charges and plagiarism lawsuits defies public detection because our society enables predators. The demographic of people unceasingly obsessed with their image, spending their precious energy and life trying to look like someone else is also encouraged in nearly all aspects of media. Hey, my own “friends” have knocked off creative concepts that I shared with them – globally, our monkey minds are still dominated by what we can take from the outside world instead of what we can sincerely give, share, or in the least, honor our sources. One of my favorite practices of yoga is honoring each guru for their contribution. Nowadays, however, original content is copied and pasted by others who simply put their name on it.

None of this is appealing to me, yet it is far more common than not. After years of wondering if I have self-sabotaged profitable opportunities, I have come to embrace that I simply prefer to be true to who I am and surround myself with those who are also true to who they are. I personally have no desire to conform to our world’s set-up of “how to win the Hunger Games” if doing so compromises my authenticity and purpose.

Patanjali states that desire is the root cause of any form of stealing (be this a physical possession, persona, facial features, or even assuming the ideology or creative concept of another as your own); therefore the practice of asteya (non-stealing) is focused on simple living. The objective of yoga is to become self-dependent, self-empowered, authentic and harmless beings. Anytime that you need someone or something to feel a certain way, you are in a co-dependent and unempowered relationship. When someone is selling sex there is most often something that person lacks or an underlying insecurity to his or her seduction (seeking money, affection, etc). This is completely different than loving playfulness between respectful and conscious partners.

Can we at least agree that we all contribute to our collective consciousness? We’re in this together, stuck in an unbreakable web of inter-connectedness. Aside from the amount of non-degradable toxic waste that plastic surgery contributes to our already compromised planet, it simply shows how weak and unaccepting of reality that we are, as a whole. Sometimes I feel like an actor in the TV series, Planet of the Apes, and I am not referring to the primates with tails. I dream of living in an organic, conscious, truthfully positive and reality-based world. I know that I am so much more than how I look and I believe that Nature holds far more power than our man-made world. I am an intelligent, loving, naturally sexy woman seeking self-actualization while contributing to a healthier world for all to live. I believe this to be a wiser investment with my energy than hiding behind an altered physical image of a doll that anyone can buy.

I AM Authentic – 5 tips to Living True

5 Tips for Living an Authentic, Zen Life By Alanna Zabel


I believe that most of us have experienced moments when we feel, act or speak in an inauthentic manner. Sometimes we want others to like us or to think that we are intelligent, cool and “in the know” – so we may go so far as to present a false persona to feel accepted. Or, we do it because we feel unsafe being our true self – or maybe we want something so much that we are willing to diminish our truth to get it. This can result in a feeling of disconnect, and even painful feelings of guilt, insecurity and/or weakness when this happens. Worse still is when we’re inauthentic with ourselves because we’re unable to admit something intimate or difficult to express. If you aspire to experience more authenticity in your life, start by accepting yourself, exactly as you are – and committing to living authentically with who you discover. Below are five tips meant to strengthen one’s practice of living true to who they are:

1) Be Present. On average we have 28,000 days in a human lifespan. That really isn’t a lot, and therefore wise to make clear life goals – just hopefully not at forsaking your lifestyle and experiences. When we are present, we resume a natural flow to our life (or the Dharma Zone, as I call it in my book, As I Am). This flow is what happens when we let go of the limiting tethers of the past and future – where you forget about the outside world and are completely doing what you’re doing, whether that’s writing, drawing, practicing yoga, meditating or any other activity. Synchronicity occurs when we are in this Zone and our lives flow effortlessly. Knowing that our time is limited, it is wise to practice being present, and to embrace each moment as it happens. Even the more difficult phases of your life that challenge you are part of your journey, and learning to be present through them adds a deeper aspect of authenticity to who you are. Being afraid of them can potentially throw you off your personal path. An obvious example is parenthood. I empathize with parents who feel that they have to create a perfect, well-balanced life of education, athletics and art for their children, but hopefully they are not sacrificing the moments of being human and authentically discovering who we are (you know, laying in a puddle of rainwater while pondering the magic of Nature).

2) Be Kind. There is a strong correlation between the wellbeing, happiness and health of people who act with kindness towards others. It is difficult to be angry, resentful, or even fearful when we are showing unselfish love and compassion towards other beings. I really enjoy leading Seva (service) Yoga retreats, and one of the reasons is that I see a massive shift in my retreaters when we begin our service activities. For example, it doesn’t matter if they are cleaning dirty food bowls for elephants or shoveling dirt, they undoubtedly begin to settle into a deeper sense of happiness and presence as expectations and defenses are softened by the acts of giving.

3) Listen to yourself. Taking and following the advice from another person is assuming that: 1) They have lived through exactly the same predicament as you have (meaning that all the factors are exactly the same) and 2) That they have the same wants and needs as you do. Neither of which is probably true. However, taking bits and pieces of advice from others can be helpful, but it is always most wise to meditate alone and make certain that your actions are in line with who you are and what you want for your life. We can really second guess ourselves when we are the only voice trying to weight our options. Adding other voices and opinions often makes the process more confusing. Practice with the small stuff – for example, what movie would you like to see this weekend? Try making a decision not based on popular reviews, ratings or showings. Ask yourself what would inspire you and expand your perspective of awareness. Then go see that movie!

4) Spend time alone in silence. Alone time has a long list of benefits, which include boosting your immune system, strengthening your relationships and improving your outlook on life. Try taking 30 minutes every week where you turn the power off externally and amp it up internally. For example, turn off your phone and email. Spend the day sitting somewhere peaceful, where you can focus on your breathing and being present. The happy contradiction is that alone time like this—in such a pure form—will carry over to your other relationships and endeavors. When you connect to yourself in a deep and true manner, you start feeling more positive and powerfully charged. When you feel more connected and charged, you often connect to others with a greater capacity and joy.

5) Avoid gossip and drama. Judgment is making a “good” or “bad” assessment when we compare (implicit or explicit) how things or people are, and how we think they should be. So, in judgment, there’s an element of dissatisfaction with the way things are and a desire for things to be the way we want them to be. This makes it very limiting to maintaining presence and realistic awareness. We begin to judge other people based on past judgments and our perspective of reality becomes tainted. AZIAM has created a 30-day Non-Judgment Challenge to help us practice this vital virtue in our everyday lives. I offer a two-step formula: Step 1: Witness Your Reality – We are not going to take away your opinions or perceptions. We are simply taking away reactions to them. In every potentially judgmental situation you find yourself in, feel free to say whatever you want in your own mind. Ex: Someone snags a parking spot you were pulling into. In your mind, go for it – you have 5 seconds (only) to assess it and label it. Step 2: LET IT GO. Follow every 5 second assessment with “AND SO IT IS.” That’s it, “AND SO IT IS”. Then move on to the next activity you were planning or involved in. This group event and practice is meant to get us into the habit of not letting life’s imperfections drag us down while refining this highly beneficial practice of non-judgment.

I AM You

Day 20, The Dharma Zone Program, As I Am: I AM You

 Aside from the fact that we are all one collective unconscious body, everyone in your life is your mirror. This is the greatest of all relationships secrets. What this means is that you are recognizing aspects of your own consciousness in another person. This gives you an opportunity to truly see what you are focusing on, and ultimately, to grow. The qualities you most admire in others are your own and the same goes for those qualities you dislike. To change anything in your relationships, be the change you want to see.

The beauty of this understanding is that it leaves no room for blame, judgment or to be a victim to another person’s actions or words. There is only room for real love based on understanding, compassion and gratitude. Your relationships with others are your opportunity to experience yourself and grow. They are a perfect mirror of your inner relationship with yourself and the beliefs you have acquired about life and love. In order for you to recognize a certain quality in another, it must be part of your conscious awareness. You could not see it otherwise.

Although The Dharma Zone guidelines minimize interactions with other people, positive and supportive relationships are the treasures of life. The time spent alone during the program will increase appreciation of your relationships when communications do resume. The space will also shed light on whether these relationships are trustworthy and true.

I AM You

See Yourself In Others

All beings tremble before violence

All fear death

All love life

See Yourself In Others

Then whom can you hurt?

What harm can you do?

He who seeks happiness

By hurting those who seek happiness

Will never find happiness

For your brother is like you

He wants to be happy

Never harm him

You Too Will Find Happiness

In this life

And after you leave this life

~ Buddhist Teaching